There are moments in time when I miss home like crazy. I close my eyes and imagine myself at home, at my parent’s house, laying in the hammock, listening to the sounds of the trees and the occasional car driving outside. Sometimes I look back and can’t believe I’m not there to take care of my nieces and nephew. I should know them like anyone; they should know me and find safety in me, their aunt. It hurts a lot if I think about it too deeply. I didn’t know this was going to be my life, living in a foreign country, away from everything and everyone.
I wish I could go up there tonight, have dinner with my parents while the nightly news is on and loud on the TV. Eat whatever our beloved maid made, which for sure would include rice. After eating, we would all go outside to the patio, and the grandkids would arrive, and we all would talk and make sure the bigger one of the kids doesn’t knock the smaller one to the ground, by playing too rough. I wish I had plans with my friends, and around 9 I would go and meet them up at the square. We would sit in the eastern bench and just talk and talk away.
My eyes watered writing this. I wish my grandma was alive, so we would just talk and laugh in the hammock at night.
I miss home like crazy today. I don’t want to miss it forever.